I woke up anxious! My husband was already making deliciously smelling coffee and I was sitting in bed terrified!!! I just had the most amazing day yesterday, and this is making me panick...is this possible!
How could it be that a simple day comprised of a 5 hour stroll around town, a cup of coffee at a deserted local diner, and a deep bonding feeling with my husband result in so much panic, are we soo pre-programmed into disbelieving we are allowed to be completely happy, even if this happiness is coming from the simplest and most natural things in life, do we un-consciously expect life to keep doling-us-out moments of pain in order to balance-off moments of happiness we secretly (as a secret from our own selves) do not feel we deserve!
For me, it was a mixture of specific negative beliefs, guilt, and fear that I had to literally "face-off"... It just made me ponder over the amplitude of moments of pure "bliss" that we miss out on everyday...
On Being a Newbie
4 days ago